What a shame to not fully bloom. Fear, apprehension, self-doubt cripple us. And they are an insult to our unique gifts. Because that part that wants to express is true, good and should live (even if the output is imperfect!). Remember the morning demon that demands your review of the future day. It asks: would…

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Spring Cleaning There’s a feeling in the air that I want to clean up all the old stuff. That includes things, habits/systems and thoughts. I’m knocking out the most mindless todo’s that I’ve had on my list for a long time: clean the office, the closets, ditch old clothes, maybe tackle the garage. Feels like…

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Access I now have 4 aligned oncologists all in agreement that I’m in complete remission. It’s not clear how this happened. There are several competing theories that I won’t go into here for purposes of brevity. I think the most likely explanation is that first line was effective in killing the scary stuff. Then, by…

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Oncologist: Are you ok? Where are you? Ari: (panting) Sorry. I’m out of breath. I just ran up a hill. You’re calling 20 minutes late and I was getting really anxious – had to burn some energy… Oncologist: Well I have your PET results. Excellent news. The scan shows there’s no metabolic activity at this point.…

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