August 2018

I’ve been back home since Saturday pm. I slept all Sunday and most of Monday. As of Tuesday I’ve been feeling mostly back to normal.

I thought I was in the clear. It had been about 14 days, 2 weeks exactly post-infusion and I was feeling strong, close to normal. I even worked out in the morning. Hours later I was in the ER being told I might die.

I pulled out the clippers. I don’t need hair where I’m going. And why hold onto it anyway – it’s just going to fall out sooner or later. Last thing I need is clumps of hair coming out of my head. So I decided to shave it off in one decisive moment. This’ll happen on my…

Commitment to a purpose will result in success, or at least a worthy failure. Proactively defining that purpose is the key to moving in a great direction. It’s also the hardest part. And there should be little fear if the vision is crystal clear. Failure is always possible no matter what. For me I think…

I’m one week out from the first infusion – that’s 5% of the way to completion, assuming no complications. The first few days were ok, better than expected actually. I slept a full day after getting home from the hospital that first day. On Friday I got up early and actually did a pretty hard…

The opportunity in facing cancer, especially being as young as I am, is that I get to face my mortality directly. There is no wriggling free when it gets hard. This is not an abstraction. This is the work. And it’s a gift.

Have you wondered what chemotherapy is like? I had never seen it first hand, just in a few episodes of Breaking Bad. Here’s a recap of my experience.

So many emotions flowing through me as I prepare mentally for chemo treatment, which starts 8:45 am tomorrow…